I find myself here, looking at the blogger window, actually finding myself BLOGGING after, what, four to five months of missing in action? I don't know, I suddenly got this very nice urge to sit down and write again. Or maybe it's just another subconscious way of procrastinating for my exams. Hmmm.

I've not written in an age, so please apologise for me Noodle Blogging as Edrei would call it. Ooh, and also apologise for my mad nonsensical way of writing now, I seriously don't know where all the prose went.

I really have been idle in the internet area, in school, (and quite in the head mind you), and I seriously don't know what happened to me. I can't hardly remember what I did in the last four months, except for fragments here and there. I know that I went on a holiday for two weeks. But I seriously, don't really remember what I learnt from that holiday. It's completely mad, I'm telling you.

Well actually I do remember what I did, I'm not completely off my rocker, but I certainly don't remember doing anything of substance.

The moment when I finally woke up and realised how messed up and idle I left my life to be was when having a phonecall with our school's Interact Club's ex-president. I was getting this weird panic attack right then on the phone and it nearly killed her.
Haha, I know that sounds so Holden Caulfield from The Catcher in the Rye, but I really do have a certain fondness for that book.

I think I have written about this before in my older, more tangled up, less straight to the point posts. But I seriously think I have this temporary burn out through the years. Call me a whacko but seriously. I see myself going through the exact emotional slump I went through last year, and it was about this time of the year.

I realise that I'm at my peak usually around the starting of the year, and really start going a bit blahh at mid year. This can usually be cured by having a holiday, like the one I had in standard six that left me in such a productive mood I actually had gotten an A in BM (how in the world did THAT happen?) and I made more graphics than I've ever done during that short span of one month.

It's mad really, because the holiday I took mid this year just made me a bigger laze than ever. I probably spend 3/4 of my time daydreaming on something to write or whatnot, and end up forgetting about it. Which is mad, it nearly killed me.

I should start reading up on my revision, pass up the graphics to Peter before he really gets off his rocker, get my exams done and over with, then I shall make myself sit down and start back the life I had tried to start here. And I definitely need to change my blog layout.

Geez, this post is really mad.

Oh I realised one thing. My blog is really depressing. Even the wallpaper is peeling.